October 2011
I flipped a coin...
it didn’t help make my decision
When things have been confusing/going wrong lately
I just want to call him. He always gets my mind off of things.
But could I have mistakenly fallen for him?
I can’t really ever have him, unless I change my life completely. If I even thought it had the slightest chance of working out, I would do it.
I’m such a hopeless romantic. I’ve fallen for someone I can’t have.
Meanwhile there’s something here that may work...
It would be awesome if I could stop shaking.
Today has been long enough.
Call Cowboy back, then sleep. He’ll get my mind to stop over thinking.
Some of the prettiest sights are seen early in the morning.
Now to figure out what I really want.
That was an interesting trip.
Hmmm
So much to think about tonight…and tomorrow while I drive home. This will be interesting.
Great way to start off the morning
Phone call from my mother telling me I need to change my work…when I can’t. Love it.
My hopeless romantic side is getting the best of...
I’m not really sure why. I’ve always been the friend that will do anything for someone, but this is more then that. I want to be able to be there for someone more then as a friend. I want them to rely on me, and I rely on them for day to day things. I want to be able to live with someone, and be completely happy with it. Sadly I know there is no such thing as being completely happy,...
insanityinthemiddle:
I swear, I try to not think things are impossible but shit, it seems pretty darn close.
I want a someone I can take care of. Give back massages, cook meals for, do laundry, clean for. I want to nurture someone. And I want him to do the same. Why is that so difficult to find?
I have no actually free weekends until December...
Do I really want to do this for the next 5 and a...
Or the next 2 and a half years?
Plan for the day:
Homework
Nails
Go visit the love of my life, Bubba <3
Get gas
Party
Sleep early
Then barn duty tomorrow
I doubt the sleeping will happen, but otherwise this seems like a manageable list right?
I feel like you don't want to be friends anymore
Honestly, that’s perfectly fine. Yes, I’ll be a bit sad if you really don’t want anything to do with me anymore, but it’s not going to shatter my world. I have a select few people I know I can go to for anything and I know they will be there for me. That’s all that matters to me. I only need those few people and horses.
Awesome jumping
AHHH so much fun :)
This is what makes me happy.
My dog is barking at a pair of socks.
The socks are sitting on the counter, and she thinks its a toy.
I'm not going to be able to move tomorrow!
Sleep now. Not hungry anymore.
I need to stop being in hospitals. I don’t like them.
No matter what
I’m a romantic.
Which was better?
Sex or my jumping lesson?
JUMPING LESSON!
I remember
One day when I was younger, I was walking with my dad. I took his hand, and the only thought that crossed my mind was, “One day I’m going to marry a man that has my dads hands.”
The little girl inside of me is still searching for those hands.
